To cage one's own heart willingly...

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I hear a kind of sorrow in that idea, someone so attuned to others that they disappear from their own care. Here’s a poem around that feeling: There lives a soul who reads the ache In trembling smiles that others fake, Who hears the grief in laughter’s sound, And kneels where silent wounds are found. A keeper of unspoken fears, A witness soft to hidden tears, They gather storms from weary skies And hold them gently, asking, “Why?” How strange, how pitiful the art, To know each fracture of a heart, Yet turn no lantern to one’s own, And make of sorrow flesh and bone. For they will calm another’s sea, Whilst drowning where none care to see; Will stitch the wounds on stranger’s skin, Yet leave their own to ache within. They understand too much, perhaps, The grief between affection’s gaps, The trembling guilt, the sharpened shame, The quiet hurt with no true name. And so they bend, and so they stay, To light the dark in others’ way; Till kindness, noble though it seems, Consumes the keeper ...

It's so difficult to describe depression to



It's so difficult to describe depression to
someone who's never been there, because
it's not sadness. I know sadness. Sadness is
to cry and to feel. But it's that cold absence
of feeling that really hollowed-out feeling.
-J.K. Rowling

My take on it-

That cold, hollow feeling can make you believe that nothing will ever change, that this emptiness is all there is. But even in that quiet numbness, there is still a small part of you that wants relief, that wants warmth again, and that part matters.

Depression may take your energy, your colors, your sense of yourself, but it cannot take your ability to heal. Feelings can return slowly, like the first light before sunrise. You might not notice it at first a tiny spark of interest, a moment of calm, a breath that feels a little lighter but those small moments are signs that you are still here, still capable of feeling, still capable of hope.

You are not broken. You are tired, you are hurting, and you are human. And being human means you can be held, understood, and helped.

One day, the warmth will come back maybe gently, maybe in waves and when it does, you’ll realize that the part of you that kept going through the cold was stronger than you ever knew.

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