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When Allah says "Not This", It's still Love

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There was a time when every night ended in tears, every silence became overthinking, every uncertainty felt frightening, and every unanswered question weighed heavily on my heart. I mistook delays for disappointments, closed doors for loss, and broken expectations for abandonment. But now I see what I could not see then. Allah was not depriving me, He was protecting me. Every path that never opened, every mixed signal that disturbed my heart, every plan that fell apart, and every feeling that never settled... they were all acts of His mercy.  Even the things I forced myself to hold onto, hoping they would work out, were gently taken away before they could leave deeper wounds. He saved me from burdens I was too blind to recognise and from trials that could have shattered my heart even further. SubhanAllah, what I once called heartbreak was, in reality, divine protection. What I thought was going wrong was Allah arranging everything in the most beautiful way. He removed what would ha...

Do you know what I love? How closely nature is...

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Do you know what I love? How closely nature is linked with mentality. A walk in the woods can calm anxiety, sitting and dropping stones into a lake can ease anger, even taking time to pot some plants and look after them can keep my mind occupied from dissociation. It's like the earth is the oldest psychiatrist of all, and it is always there to talk to, giving me a constant free prescription. Isn't that beautiful.

It's really comforting to know that...

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It's really comforting to know that all the times  I was at my lowest and loneliest in the past the  whole time i had my self in the future and present  who had survived those things looking back with  love and tenderness and wishing desperately to  offer comfort. I am my own guardian angel and I can use that knowledge when I'm struggling now and remember that somewhere there is a version of me that has survived this and is watching me with love and pride and joy in his heart.

I am starved for tenderness and.....

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 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝒉𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝒉𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝒉 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝒉𝑎𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛  𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝒉 𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑡𝒉𝑠." -𝑀𝑎𝑦 𝑆𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑜𝑛, 𝑅𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔: