Ambivert

You don't ask people with knives in their stomachs what would make them happy; happiness is no longer the point. It's all about survival; it's all about whether you pull the knife out and bleed to death or keep it in. -Nick Hornby

I hope you know that you deserve it all.  The best, the most honest, the most beautiful  and purest love in the world. Not only to be  loved by others, but to be loved by yourself.  To look in the mirror and think "yes, I'm exactly  who I want to be". To speak up and be proud of  yourself. To be brave and open. You deserve the  nicest and most caring people to walk into  your  life. You deserve it all, you know. The whole world.  And you should never forget.

It's really comforting to know that all the times  I was at my lowest and loneliest in the past the  whole time i had my self in the future and present  who had survived those things looking back with  love and tenderness and wishing desperately to  offer comfort. I am my own guardian angel and I can use that knowledge when I'm struggling now and remember that somewhere there is a version of me that has survived this and is watching me with love and pride and joy in his heart.

I hope you know you don't have to wait to be noticed or chosen by someone in order to feel beautiful or to know that Light is shining through  you. There will be people who see you for who  you truly are and there will also be people who  are too busy or preoccupied or just don't have the time. But their lack of ability to see you is not  a reflection of you or your worth. The state they  are in will not hinder you from being led where you need to be, no matter how well you know them or how connected you feel to them. You will still bloom in the way you were meant to, no matter who does or does not notice you.

There's both beauty and strength in your softness, in your kindness, despite the world having given reasons for you not to be. ~Suhaib Rumi

You don't know how easy it is to make someone believe that they're bad and you don't know how hard it is to heal what you've broken inside them and how long it can take for them to believe again ..that NO, they don't destroy everything they touch and that THEY ARE actually good people.