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When Allah says "Not This", It's still Love

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There was a time when every night ended in tears, every silence became overthinking, every uncertainty felt frightening, and every unanswered question weighed heavily on my heart. I mistook delays for disappointments, closed doors for loss, and broken expectations for abandonment. But now I see what I could not see then. Allah was not depriving me, He was protecting me. Every path that never opened, every mixed signal that disturbed my heart, every plan that fell apart, and every feeling that never settled... they were all acts of His mercy.  Even the things I forced myself to hold onto, hoping they would work out, were gently taken away before they could leave deeper wounds. He saved me from burdens I was too blind to recognise and from trials that could have shattered my heart even further. SubhanAllah, what I once called heartbreak was, in reality, divine protection. What I thought was going wrong was Allah arranging everything in the most beautiful way. He removed what would ha...

Within me are a hundred joys a thousand sorrows...

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Within me are a hundred joys, a thousand sorrows, innumerable hopes and heartbreaks, and a small empty corner in which I hide from them all. ~Antonio Porchia

You are most powerful when you are silent. People never expect...

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You are most powerful when you are most silent. People never expect silence. They expect words, motion, defense, offense, back and forth. They expect to leap into the fray. They are ready, fists up, words hanging leaping from their mouths. Silence? No.  ~Alison McGhee, All Rivers Flow To The Sea.

I fall for souls, not the skin carrying it...

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I fall for raw conversation, those in which I know the person is not playing, not pretending to be someone they aren't. I fall for carefree, inadvertent smiles, those which aren't intended to impress another. I fall for what is real, I fall for souls, not the skin carrying it .

You don't ask people with knives in their stomachs what would make....

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You don't ask people with knives in their stomachs what would make them happy; happiness is no longer the point. It's all about survival; it's all about whether you pull the knife out and bleed to death or keep it in. -Nick Hornby

I hope you know you deserve it all...

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I hope you know that you deserve it all.  The best, the most honest, the most beautiful  and purest love in the world. Not only to be  loved by others, but to be loved by yourself.  To look in the mirror and think "yes, I'm exactly  who I want to be". To speak up and be proud of  yourself. To be brave and open. You deserve the  nicest and most caring people to walk into  your  life. You deserve it all, you know. The whole world.  And you should never forget.

It's really comforting to know that...

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It's really comforting to know that all the times  I was at my lowest and loneliest in the past the  whole time i had my self in the future and present  who had survived those things looking back with  love and tenderness and wishing desperately to  offer comfort. I am my own guardian angel and I can use that knowledge when I'm struggling now and remember that somewhere there is a version of me that has survived this and is watching me with love and pride and joy in his heart.