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When Allah says "Not This", It's still Love

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There was a time when every night ended in tears, every silence became overthinking, every uncertainty felt frightening, and every unanswered question weighed heavily on my heart. I mistook delays for disappointments, closed doors for loss, and broken expectations for abandonment. But now I see what I could not see then. Allah was not depriving me, He was protecting me. Every path that never opened, every mixed signal that disturbed my heart, every plan that fell apart, and every feeling that never settled... they were all acts of His mercy.  Even the things I forced myself to hold onto, hoping they would work out, were gently taken away before they could leave deeper wounds. He saved me from burdens I was too blind to recognise and from trials that could have shattered my heart even further. SubhanAllah, what I once called heartbreak was, in reality, divine protection. What I thought was going wrong was Allah arranging everything in the most beautiful way. He removed what would ha...

Do you know what I love? How closely nature is...

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Do you know what I love? How closely nature is linked with mentality. A walk in the woods can calm anxiety, sitting and dropping stones into a lake can ease anger, even taking time to pot some plants and look after them can keep my mind occupied from dissociation. It's like the earth is the oldest psychiatrist of all, and it is always there to talk to, giving me a constant free prescription. Isn't that beautiful.

You know what's scary about this age...?

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You know what's scary about this age? You can't even enjoy your down time. You're socially convinced that every moment you're spending not doing anything is wasted time. That you always should be working towards something. We forget that it's okay to have a breather and simply take time to yourself.

All of a sudden I felt really tired...

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And all of a sudden I felt really tired. Tired of loving, tired of caring and tired of trying. It's hard to keep going when the people you love turn against you and drain your heart of all the love, the life and everything else it had. |lsalmabdul

She was beautiful but not like those girls in...

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She was beautiful, but not like those girls in magazines. She was beautiful, for the way she thought. She was beautiful, for the sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful, for her ability to make other people smile, even if she was sad. No, she wasn't beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful, deep down to her soul. -F Scott Fitzgerald

This is how heart makes a duet...

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Everything is beautiful and I am so sad. This is how the heart makes a duet of wonder and grief. ~Mark Nepo

I want to leave, to go somewhere where...

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"I want to leave, to go somewhere where I should be really in my place, where I would fit in.. but my place is nowhere; I am unwanted."  ~Jean-Paul Sartre, Nausea